Those with Orthorexia or Anorexia tend to be very obsessive about maintaining and following schedules, whether that be a meal plan, a exercise schedule/routine, or a daily planner that dictates the times that allow eating and drinking to occur. Consistency is lovely to have, but it isn't right to have no balance in our lives. We need to have balance, but what we do not need is extremism and no flexibility-- a.k.a rigid and anti-flexible routines!!
When I was in recovery (and I still am!), I felt as though I was obligated to obey the rules of my eating disorder and was bound to the chains it wrapped around my mind and body. I was constantly absorbed in worrying about family events and friend outings that conflicted with my obsessive schedules. I lived in fear of breaking the sequence of events that happened daily. Let's look at schedule A, the way I lived previously to enlightenment.
1. I had to wake up early every morning to workout before school (when I was attending school). If I didn't I was a mess. I cried because sleeping in meant I was "lazy" and "fat".
2. Then I had to work out because if I didn't I was deemed to hear the aggressive sounds of my eating disorder yelling at me. I would cry and feel uncomfortable throughout the whole day.
3. If I didn't drink a certain amount of water every day, I felt "dirty" and not "detoxed".
4. I had to eat lots of veggies. If my plate didn't look 70% green/veggie-oriented, I would freak out. I'd complain to my mom, the person at home who made my meals, and ask her to change my plate around to my liking in a not so kind manor.
1. I can sleep in sometimes (even on school days!)
2. If I sleep in on the weekends it doesn't even faze me because I know that I can just get up, lace up my sneakers and do whatever my workout is for that day-- heck, sometimes when I go to school late in the mornings, I'll still squeeze in my workout and then head to school!
3. If I wake up late for school, I don't fret about missing my morning workout. I still feel slightly nervous about it, but anorexia's clutch no longer hold me and make me feel sad. I don't feel upset, I don't cry, and I don't let it hold me back from enjoying the rest of my day. Sometime's I will workout after school, and I don't even work out on Mondays as it's my rest day. I feel free and happy with the choices I make now about exercise and my workout consistency.
4. I drink a lot of water throughout the day because I like to be hydrated. I don't feel forced or obligated to by the voices in my head.
5. Food doesn't bother me anymore. I maintain a sugar and gluten-free-vegan diet and it's not because wheat, gluten, eggs, meat, dairy, and sugar freak me out. They are my personal health choices that fit best for me. Sometimes I brake away from these beliefs and eat something with natural sugar in it. I don't cry anymore. I don't take beating from my anorexia. I am recovered now and I gained back my strength. I know that I am free now and I am not going to let anything stand in my way-- especially not a voice that has been already overthrown. Others trust me to make my meals and pack a nutritious lunch everyday for school and work.
Okay guys--
Let's be real here! Look at how much more freedom and self-love and respect that I have in life schedule (E)NLIGHTENMENT compares to the controlling (A)NOREXIA one. I am so much more happy. This porves that change can be good-- braking away from anorexia is awesome! Be your own person! Don't be afraid to stray from your routine!
*** BRAKING AWAY FROM ANOREXIA STARTS WITH YOU. TAKE YOUR FIRST STEP-- OVERTHROW ANOREXIA FROM THE LAND OF ___(your lovely name here!)___!! BE YOUR OWN COUNTRY-- REBUILD THE GOVERNMENT AND BE FREE :) ***
When I was in recovery (and I still am!), I felt as though I was obligated to obey the rules of my eating disorder and was bound to the chains it wrapped around my mind and body. I was constantly absorbed in worrying about family events and friend outings that conflicted with my obsessive schedules. I lived in fear of breaking the sequence of events that happened daily. Let's look at schedule A, the way I lived previously to enlightenment.
SCHEDULE (A)NOREXIA
1. I had to wake up early every morning to workout before school (when I was attending school). If I didn't I was a mess. I cried because sleeping in meant I was "lazy" and "fat".
2. Then I had to work out because if I didn't I was deemed to hear the aggressive sounds of my eating disorder yelling at me. I would cry and feel uncomfortable throughout the whole day.
3. If I didn't drink a certain amount of water every day, I felt "dirty" and not "detoxed".
4. I had to eat lots of veggies. If my plate didn't look 70% green/veggie-oriented, I would freak out. I'd complain to my mom, the person at home who made my meals, and ask her to change my plate around to my liking in a not so kind manor.
SCHEDULE (E)NLIGHTENMENT
1. I can sleep in sometimes (even on school days!)
2. If I sleep in on the weekends it doesn't even faze me because I know that I can just get up, lace up my sneakers and do whatever my workout is for that day-- heck, sometimes when I go to school late in the mornings, I'll still squeeze in my workout and then head to school!
3. If I wake up late for school, I don't fret about missing my morning workout. I still feel slightly nervous about it, but anorexia's clutch no longer hold me and make me feel sad. I don't feel upset, I don't cry, and I don't let it hold me back from enjoying the rest of my day. Sometime's I will workout after school, and I don't even work out on Mondays as it's my rest day. I feel free and happy with the choices I make now about exercise and my workout consistency.
4. I drink a lot of water throughout the day because I like to be hydrated. I don't feel forced or obligated to by the voices in my head.
5. Food doesn't bother me anymore. I maintain a sugar and gluten-free-vegan diet and it's not because wheat, gluten, eggs, meat, dairy, and sugar freak me out. They are my personal health choices that fit best for me. Sometimes I brake away from these beliefs and eat something with natural sugar in it. I don't cry anymore. I don't take beating from my anorexia. I am recovered now and I gained back my strength. I know that I am free now and I am not going to let anything stand in my way-- especially not a voice that has been already overthrown. Others trust me to make my meals and pack a nutritious lunch everyday for school and work.
Okay guys--
Let's be real here! Look at how much more freedom and self-love and respect that I have in life schedule (E)NLIGHTENMENT compares to the controlling (A)NOREXIA one. I am so much more happy. This porves that change can be good-- braking away from anorexia is awesome! Be your own person! Don't be afraid to stray from your routine!
*** BRAKING AWAY FROM ANOREXIA STARTS WITH YOU. TAKE YOUR FIRST STEP-- OVERTHROW ANOREXIA FROM THE LAND OF ___(your lovely name here!)___!! BE YOUR OWN COUNTRY-- REBUILD THE GOVERNMENT AND BE FREE :) ***
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